Like I said, today will be a double happiness for me.. Scholarship ceremony cum class outing.. it was really an awesome day for me..

The movie- The Sorcerer's Apprentice was fantastic... Luckily neva trust those reviews that only gave the movie 2.5 stars.. wahahax.. I has been a long long time since I had a class gathering like that, so I really looked forward.. I feel happy in this class.. they are very supportive...

Had dinner at Xin Wang Hong Kong cafe, and had great laughter there.. Plus.. free frolick from Francis.. hmm.. yummy yummy... Though neva had a chance to join them for supper, but I won't mind having such session again!!wahahax...




* longest movie tickets I ever held, 16 pics*

Forget to bring my HP to school again, 1 day without it seriously is inconvenience.. Usually I neva bring, sure got many smses or people looking for me de.. dono y.. hahax..

Bought 2 dress today.. hahax.. hopefully can wear pls.. lolx.. very impt, cos i like the dresses alot.. heeheex.. Had been busy with AFA today, and must chiong before tml comes.. if not cannot finish sio... Must chop chop liaoz..

Went for QMRW today, and had Mos Burger with she er after that.. so full now sio..

Count down: 1 more day man.. lolx.. despite a few back out, I still look forward to the gathering..

Finally these few days can go home early.. I can't even rmber when is the last time i can go back home at 4pm sharp.. hahax.. With WISP over, and QMWR soon to be over as well.. now no longer feel the intense and stressful life..

Still got BComm and AFA to go.. seems like BComm is rather challengng this time.. must really jia you.. I can't wait for Friday to come, hahax.. double happiness for me.. scholarship plus plus outing.. heeheex.. hao qi dai.... woohoo!!!

Had been raining the whole day.. is feeling very cooling now.. hahax.. nice weather to have a good sleep.. Audit was cancelled again.. really very sad.. now got 3 accumulated tutorials.. haa.. wonder he can finish ma.. Dono is coincidence or what.. the reason being sent to us today was the reason the Sihoon told us.. but luckily class was cancelled, if not i got no time to complete my stuff, and she er will be late for school...

Today had a busy day due to NAQ.. but is was fun looking at those students completing the test.. now i know how it feels like to be an invigilator.. hahax..

Stayed in school for project, hopefully things will go according to lan for once please..

Went to the market behind our school for dinner, seriously dono what to eat there already, but end up had wanton mee while others had satay beehoon.. hahax..

Took a train home in the end.. super crowded as usual.. strange sio, got bus concession, end up still take train and walk back home.. waste money only.. but luckily i made the right choice of walking cos i met a sec school friend while walking home.. hahax.. the way we recognise nice each other seriously like drama sio.. we walked pass each other, then we later turned back at the same time to say " is you right".. u are very familiar.. hahax.. but is nice seeing him cos it has been 6 years I think when i last saw him..

Today I must say, I 'm really sui ttm.. purposely wake up early to go to school to do work, end up still reach there like normal time.. haa...

By the time I reached cwp, I was still deciding whether to wait for the shuttle bus at 7.50 or to take bus 966 since it is already there.. end up i decided to take bus 966, but god know there was an accident on the road, plus no seats for me, and the auntie was super annoying...haax...

Finally make it to Bukit Panjiang le, but i took a wrong bus without confirming whether is it 184.. end up the bus that I took was another bus 966.. Can't believe i get down from 966, and board a new bus which is also 966 again!!!wth! Luckily managed to realised fast enough.. if not i will end up at parkway le la...

Haa.. got off at the next stop, and had to walk up slope to the bus stop where there is 184 or 75 for me to take... finally.. bus 75 came, crowded like anything still no seats.. but my leg started to have blisters by that time.. Seriously every time wear heels damn sui sio...

By the time reach school almost 8.40 le la.. should have waited for shuttle bus lorx.. cos still will reach at the same time.. haa.. when finally reach opposite ngee ann.. i saw bus 61.. i had a strong instinct he was inside.. I knew I was right...

Today huo qi hen da.. a few of them kena my scoldings.. so sorry kkx.. cos leg pain, temper also bad liaox.. thank you so much for those who lend me shoes to wear today, XinDan, Audrey and Glenn.. hahax.. tyty!!! Love you guys!!

My clothes finally arrived after waiting for so long.... heeheex..

Had a super cool dialogue in the dark session this morning.. it is really very scary being in the dark even though i cant really describe the fear that I had. Being in total darkness requires me to depend very hard in all my other senses, and inside 快要被蛇儿"摸光"了啦!! ask her touch the phone, dono what she doing sio, super anyhow.. hahax..

Went to Plaza Singapura for a movie date at 5.30 with 蛇儿.. wahahax.. Inception was fantastic.. twice hands up for that show.. hahax.. I like the kid in the movie - James, cos he is cute and handsome ttm.. The movie really requires us to think, and is sad that he die in his dreams in the end.. how I wish he came back to his reality even though his dreams was where he wanted to be..

Another rainy day.. whole day will be staying at home, since still not feeling very well yet.. but luckily the fever has subsided, if not I will feel worst I guess..

Lots of work waiting for me to complete, can't afford to be sick now.. Planning to give myself a break tml night, and will be having a movie date with Aud, most likely watching Inception i guess.. hahax.. can't wait for the movie to start..

It has been a rainy morning today, and had to wake up early to go to school for project..

First stop went to Bukit Panjiang hoping to buy the ice-cream from Youcan, but I searched the whole place also never see where is the ice-cream is been sold. Kinda like a wasted trip, but at least I managed to finally change my POSB card.. wahahaz.

Had been coughing the whole morning, and was not really feeling well, maybe had a flu ba, tts y feeling a bit sleepy now.. haa.. First time that I tried sleeping on the bench under Makan Place, but after I woke up, the headache got worst... Slept throughout my journey home, but not 觉得非常辛苦。。。

Must endure... still got lots of things not completed yet...

眼泪啊眼泪，不要一直掉。I tried my best le, I am not who the way I look, I may appear tough and heartless, but inside my heart, I am struggling until very hard. Is not I don wanna answer his greeting, is I was too shocked and surprised to see him. I really tot wont see him again, but in library, I was thinking whether I will see him ma, but when i really saw him i was too shocked.

Ms Lee asked me about him today..cos lecturers gossipping ah.. but came at wrong timing.. haa.. Friends all encouraged me that I should not give up.. but i tried le... but to no avail... Initially i never thought of going back into this relationship circle, until he appears and make me wanna get back into this game again, but just when I like him, it ended le.. haa.. sad...

Delicate this song to all again.. all lyrics reflect my thoughts and feelings now..

蔡健雅当你离开的时候
作曲:蔡健雅填词:蔡健雅

只能低著头发呆　
让回忆渗透脑袋
渐 渐变空白

把他当作个意外　
但内心还想不开
因为我明白　
其实你都还在

我想起了遇见你的时候
想 起你眼神中的温柔
我想起了我们第一次牵手　
我闭上眼

想起当时你怀裏的颤抖
似乎那麽害怕失去我
然而到後来 我什麼都没有　
当你离开的时候

我可以装作已释怀　
他对我也算关怀
他看不出来

我知道这样不应该　
在 他身上找依赖
算不算是种出卖　
因为你一直在

我想起了遇见你的时候
想起你眼神中的温柔
我想起了我们第一次 牵手　
我闭上眼

想起当时你怀裏的颤抖
似乎那麽害怕失去我
然而到後来我什麼都没有　
当你离开的时候

我 想起你亲吻我的时候
想起你眼神中的沈默
我想起了我们平静的分手
我闭上眼

想起当时你美丽的承诺
把你整个心 都交给我
然而到後来我什麼都没有　
越是没有你　
越是心痛

我想起了遇见你的时候
想起你眼神中的温柔
我 想起了我们第一次牵手　
我闭上眼

想起当时你怀裏的颤抖
似乎那麽害怕失去我
然而到後来我什麼都没有　
当你 离开的时候

I need to redelicate this Guang Liang song le.. never expect to be so fast.. but it has come to an end. I tried my best to salvage, but to no avail. Up to a certain extent is my fault, i blame no one. But, it takes two hands to clap, so I really hope that he could have told me those things earlier. At least I am not declared dead within a night, and not even given a second chance. Is not good being afraid that the other party will be angry, and is better to share in a r/s. Hiding and being afraid that the other party will be unhappy is the last thing anyone should do.. but whats the point now...

Initially, I didn'y want to try anymore because somehow I had a voice inside that tells me that the answer is no, but I scare i will regret. After gather all the courage that I needed, I tried... though still fail, but at least I never regret. He really deserve someone way way way better than me. Feeling down low and sad, but i must really tried hard to hide my real feelings, if not the rest will find out... let Aud saw my teary eyes today while talking to her.. haa..

Here is the song... which I hate to play, though is nice..

朋友变情人再变朋友歌词-品冠(Pin Kuang)

安静的房 间, 还有你的温柔
躺在棉被上看着多的枕头,
为何分手后 回忆就被偷走
爱情走到尽头是否可以做朋友
你和我以前是朋友, 心情不错就想约你走走,
你聊电影我听你唱歌, 我们总是无话不说
还能做朋友或许这是最好的结果
朋友变情人再变朋友, 谁都觉坎坷
爱上你以后, 失忆也很轻松
现实太残酷, 梦中你会拥抱我

当爱上以后, 如今我们分手
我变成新歌 手, 是唱太多哗啦歌
你和我现在是朋友, 你那么好 却只能做朋友
你装冷漠, 我装无所谓 ,我们如何要求更多
还能做朋友 或许这是最好的结果
朋友变情人再变朋友, 只能写成歌...


你和我以前是朋友, 心情不错就想约你走走
你聊电影 我听你唱歌, 我们总是无话不说
还能做朋友, 或许这是最好的结果
朋友变情人再变朋友, 谁都觉坎坷

你和我现在是朋友, 你那么好却只能做朋友
你装冷漠, 我装无所谓,
我们如何要求更多
还能做朋友 或许这是最好的结果
朋友变情人再变朋 友, 只能写成歌
朋友变情人再变朋友
祝我们快乐

Because of this irritating character of mine, i had done something that I am going to regret... From the moment I know the truth till now, my mind keep flashing back all the things till i can't stop. Even though it has been settled, i still cant stop blaming myself for it..

It is stupid when one does not know how to treasure the people that are nice to you. Often we take advantage of the fact of the fact that they are nice, and we will do something stupid to spoil everything. The nice people should deserve people that are better than I do.. seriously.

To you: I am sorry for what I have done.

After making many many decisions, and going through lots and lots of thinking.. everything have come to an end.. I have finally make up my mind!!!

Feel so relieve after doing so.. now I got to focus all my energy to do all the stuff that needs to be completed.. Jia you